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This morning I sit in silence. The banishment of spoken word will not last all day, but for these few hours, the moratorium is self-imposed and necessary. For too many months, my days have held too much activity and too little reflection. (Yes, I inserted the word “too” on purpose too many times in that last sentence.)
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I start blog posts in my head, but have no energy, and worse—no inspiration—to complete the written thoughts. No journal entries…very little correspondence…even FB connections have seemed a bridge too far. I wish I could confess my lack of communication and expression was due to a long term Sabbath, or a noble withdrawal from social media in order to tap into the deep well of inspiration. Unfortunately, I have texted, surfed the web and clicked vigorously through channels. My Netflix “recently watched” is lengthy.  What I have not done is taken time to reflect.
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In the past few months, I have planned, prepared, polished and provided public presentations. (Obviously, lack of rest does not affect my use of alliteration.) Public speaking has become my vocation.  I chuckle with both surprise and delight to type such a statement. The fact is I really enjoy every part of the process. The struggle comes in finding the rest that needs to follow all the p’s.
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I know that relaxing my mind is important, but I tend to relax to the point of paralysis. True rest should provide inspiration and fresh creativity, but lately I’ve had nothin’. The well is dry. So, I’m adding some silence to my daily diet. I’ve allowed too much ‘noise’ to drown the voice of God.
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My devotions have settled this week in the book of Isaiah where the words of 30:15 caught my attention: “In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength…” The sad part of this verse is the way it ends: “but you would have none of it.” How many times have I been offered refreshment and strength only to “have none of it?”  Today, I choose repentance, rest, quietness and trust and rejoice in the promise of salvation and strength to come!
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Am I the only one who struggles with this thing called rest? What do you do to find the needed spiritual refreshment that follows intense service? I’d enjoy reading your comments here.
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©Brenda Pace, 2012

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